I want becoming part of something bigger.

This is kind of ridiculous random thinking but surely I find it interesting.
A life full of curiousity, looks better than, a life where you can get what you want instantly.
May some people love to relax and enjoy things to live on.
But how I find this is not the purpose of my life?
I always get excited for something that I really live and need problem-solving.

It's really fun after all.

I want to crack code

Go on some adventures out there...

It should be fun...

Or

It looks fun???

I'm probably just tired.

Because I don't know what to do anymore.

All those ambitions are buried somewhere,

in a place that kept hidden.

And I can't find it anymore.

I just want.....

to be somebody's heroine...

but...

what kind of heroine who even don't understand what she does?

I watched too much fantasy stories...

I forgot that I live in this suck reality.

I just want others recognize and respect me.

I always imagine a life that never happen...

It's kinda sad.

I don't have ability to keep all those dreams come true...

I just want.....

to become part....

of something bigger..

More than this.