Please pardon my grammar as I'm not taking the class seriously.
It has been a long time to know him...
Still I want to know more.
I need to admit, I shocked for some times to see how human changes his/her mind.
However it is the most beautiful things that ever happened to a person.
My boyfriend.
I used to be haunted by the shadow of my ex.
I cried and prayed. Cried and prayed.
Make sure I won't separates my soul from its body before its' time.
The shadow was too strong to be vanished
It appears that for a long time, I've been living in a certain place.
A certain place that trapped me for such a decade (forgive me to exaggerate it)
I know God will never abandon my prayer.
I just need more patience to keep waiting.
Sometime I want to give up and just curl up in my own cemetery.
However something keeps me awake.
I remember how the first time I had a feeling for you.
It was just through the thousands of colorful pixels which represents you.
I remember the first time you stepped into the room,
With your glasses and those I-don't-care attitude.
You.
And with all of those your sarcastic words and actions.
Creates a big gap between you and my ex.
It ruins all the memory that I was hope for fulfill my expectations.
I cry a lot. I don't want a sarcastic person like you.
But with your words you created my strength.
With your actions you created my attitude.
And by all meanings,
I know your flaws, I know those harsh words...
But I just can't letting you go...
No,
Never.
I thought I can.
But I can't.
There's always something...
Something that I felt strange.
That helps me find my way back to you.
I never want to change you.
You are you, and always be you.
No need to change anything.
But through the time we are together.
You change. Better.
I love the way you used to, but I'm loving more the way you are now.
After I know more about you. I just can't let you leave from my life.
Thank you.
Even when there will be a time when we need to separate. (Which I wish there won't)
I will always love you.
